Naturally. You two are good for each other. That's just one of the ways.
[ not that he needs to tell nico that. ]
But I do love them back, even as only a sword. I love Hijikata-san with everything I have. I loved the caretakers at the museum for taking care of me and keeping Hijikata-san's memory alive. I even loved Ichimura for carrying out Hijikata-san's last wish, when it meant I couldn't be there for his final battle. It's different than what humans are used to, I think, but it's not that we can't love at all, especially now. I will always love those who care for me. That includes you.
And part of being a tool means that our purpose is decided for us. If it weren't for that, I likely would have been lost to history alongside my partner the day our master died. It hurts, now, to think about it, and I don't necessarily want to go back to it. Maybe something will change and I want have to, but I don't think there's a way to know just yet. I'm not even sure what I'd do with a life of my own, now that I think about it. Maybe I'd sell medicine, like my master used to? Or spend my days writing poetry?
[ he does not need to tell nico that but it's nice to hear. instead, it is still existential hours so he focuses on the rest. ]
...when you put it that way it makes a little more sense like how animals communicate or how the memories of ghosts live. they might not be the same as a mortal's perspective, but it still exists
maybe it's just because i spent so long trying to figure out my real purpose that i have a hard time thinking of having a predetermined one which is on me obviously not you it's...kind of like how i feel about shame and the other cocoa puffs they were born from me and their original purpose was only to listen to me or fight against me but i didn't want that for them because they deserved their own freedom too i guess that's where this is coming from the cool thing about having a life of your own is being able to decide and try things and change your mind but uh. i cannot in good faith recommend poetry because i still don't get it (but i support your efforts i guess)
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[ not that he needs to tell nico that. ]
But I do love them back, even as only a sword. I love Hijikata-san with everything I have. I loved the caretakers at the museum for taking care of me and keeping Hijikata-san's memory alive. I even loved Ichimura for carrying out Hijikata-san's last wish, when it meant I couldn't be there for his final battle.
It's different than what humans are used to, I think, but it's not that we can't love at all, especially now. I will always love those who care for me. That includes you.
And part of being a tool means that our purpose is decided for us. If it weren't for that, I likely would have been lost to history alongside my partner the day our master died.
It hurts, now, to think about it, and I don't necessarily want to go back to it. Maybe something will change and I want have to, but I don't think there's a way to know just yet.
I'm not even sure what I'd do with a life of my own, now that I think about it. Maybe I'd sell medicine, like my master used to? Or spend my days writing poetry?
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...when you put it that way it makes a little more sense
like how animals communicate or how the memories of ghosts live. they might not be the same as a mortal's perspective, but it still exists
maybe it's just because i spent so long trying to figure out my real purpose that i have a hard time thinking of having a predetermined one
which is on me obviously not you
it's...kind of like how i feel about shame and the other cocoa puffs
they were born from me and their original purpose was only to listen to me or fight against me
but i didn't want that for them because they deserved their own freedom too
i guess that's where this is coming from
the cool thing about having a life of your own is being able to decide and try things and change your mind
but uh. i cannot in good faith recommend poetry because i still don't get it (but i support your efforts i guess)