[ Citrus' expression softens considerably. He leans against the kitchen counter and gives the whole room a look over. There's a lot of memories associated with it already, phantom images of everyone else on Team Fox going about their daily lives in here. ]
I'm grateful, too. I'm still... honestly, I don't feel a lot even now. This hero game's trying to force me back into feeling like a robot, only doing as is demanded of me while the emptiness grows. But when I'm in here, with you guys... I don't know if I'm happy, but it's a place that makes me want to come home. Y'know?
...Mm. It's doing its best to push everyone to their limits, isn't it? I am sorry you were dragged into it, because of that.
[ they give him a gentle smile. ]
I get it. And, you know - wanting to come home? That's a step toward feeling happy again. Maybe not here, but sometime. And I'm really, really glad to hear it.
[ That's a loaded question... Citrus has to pause for a moment, leaving the kitchen in gentle silence as he sorts out his head. ]
I want to.
[ Trusting anyone but himself is a rough process when he's felt alone for so long. Even loving people is easier. Trust requires a willingness to let yourself fall. ]
I didn't trust you at all in that first week. When Rocket and Mika died, I thought that was my proof that you were all just leading us to slaughter while pretending to be in the same boat. I don't think that now. I think that's the position you've been forced into without your say-so.
That was... a lot to take in. [ sorrowful. they didn't know either of them well, of course, but fox did think they could have been friends. ] It's no wonder you'd think we were responsible when we came to welcome you.
But if we'd known that would happen, I don't think I'd have been nearly as excited to meet you guys. I wish it was different. Like... a nice vacation with some new friends before you had to go back home.
[ but it isn't, so fox sighs. ]
I'm going to trust you, though, okay? You were honest with us, so I want to be honest with you, too.
[ He actually puts his hand over his heart for that. Swearing by a heart that you feel is unbeating may not be the greatest vow to make, but it's the best he's got. ]
Whatever happens, I want our team to make it out of this. I'm on your side, our side, until the end.
[ Whoa! After all the different shapes he's seen Fox take, it's strange to think that this one is the real deal, the person Fox was before this life pulled him in.
Even just thinking of him as 'he' is a novelty. ]
Kazunari! Heh, this really feels like an honor. So that's your real face...The Fox nickname suits you.
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Low bar, but hey. We did it!
[ And after chewing a bite of cinnamon roll: ] Did you figure out what you got yet?
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And, yeah, I've got Emmy's power now.
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[ Since that seemed to be the biggest cause of chaotic incidents yesterday. ]
Guess it also helps that none of us have super offensive powers.
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That's true, too! But I still like our powers best. We're pretty well rounded, if you ask me!
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Agreed on that - though we might be a tad biased?
[ TEAM FOX NUMERO UNO!!! ]
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[ Citrus' expression softens considerably. He leans against the kitchen counter and gives the whole room a look over. There's a lot of memories associated with it already, phantom images of everyone else on Team Fox going about their daily lives in here. ]
I'm grateful, too. I'm still... honestly, I don't feel a lot even now. This hero game's trying to force me back into feeling like a robot, only doing as is demanded of me while the emptiness grows. But when I'm in here, with you guys... I don't know if I'm happy, but it's a place that makes me want to come home. Y'know?
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[ they give him a gentle smile. ]
I get it. And, you know - wanting to come home? That's a step toward feeling happy again. Maybe not here, but sometime. And I'm really, really glad to hear it.
...Do you trust me?
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I want to.
[ Trusting anyone but himself is a rough process when he's felt alone for so long. Even loving people is easier. Trust requires a willingness to let yourself fall. ]
I didn't trust you at all in that first week. When Rocket and Mika died, I thought that was my proof that you were all just leading us to slaughter while pretending to be in the same boat. I don't think that now. I think that's the position you've been forced into without your say-so.
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But if we'd known that would happen, I don't think I'd have been nearly as excited to meet you guys. I wish it was different. Like... a nice vacation with some new friends before you had to go back home.
[ but it isn't, so fox sighs. ]
I'm going to trust you, though, okay? You were honest with us, so I want to be honest with you, too.
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[ He actually puts his hand over his heart for that. Swearing by a heart that you feel is unbeating may not be the greatest vow to make, but it's the best he's got. ]
Whatever happens, I want our team to make it out of this. I'm on your side, our side, until the end.
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So it's past time that I introduce myself properly, isn't it?
[ without another word, fox pulls off their mask, and for once, their appearance doesn't melt into an illusion. ]
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Kazunari Miyoshi. It's nice to meet you - for real, this time.
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Even just thinking of him as 'he' is a novelty. ]
Kazunari! Heh, this really feels like an honor. So that's your real face...The Fox nickname suits you.
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You think? And here I was just thinking it was kinda cute!
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[ Ponta laughs - despite his generally muted emotions, acting cheerful still comes easy to him. ]
But you do have a mischievous vibe. Ah - I mean that as a compliment, though.
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[ ... ]
Though I still kinda wish they'd give us our door back.
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[ It's not looking good for doors of the non-crispy variety this week. A dark, dark time for home improvement. ]
Did Tiger ever share who did all of that?
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Nope. Why, do you think they know? We could totally ask!
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I figured that maybe they'd be more likely to share with a fellow team leader.
[ So he's totally sneaking to find out through Connections(tm). Look, door thief, he's not mad. He just wants to talk. ]
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And if they don't give our door back even after that, we can just fight back, Fox style!
[ what does that mean ]
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They better yield right away! We take the home improvement war seriously around here.
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